I burnt the popcorn. Correction–the popcorn and the pot.
A trained chef. A private chef. A personal chef (yes, ’tis me, all three)…..and now, Popcorn and pot burner (four). 😦
“How could I do that?”
The self-labeling continues with “bad” “irresponsible” “careless” and my entire day is over BEEEEEECAAAAAAUSE (duh!) “I Burnt The Popcorn AND The Pot!”
This is certainly not the first time for this heated internal dialogue. The same name-calling, (started by me, and only with me) is also triggered by my consuming foods that are not particularly health-supportive. “Foods” as in items with lots of grease, lots of sugar, and a whole lotta salt!
What is this?!!! Why do I self-bully with “junk” thoughts that “feed” me ill health, mentally and emotionally and with time–physically, in addition to having me sabotage my previous efforts toward healthier choices. There’s enough evil out there, why bring it home, where brain and heart are primary tenants. Their influence over additional residents (vessels, organs, cells….) can make or break you.
So on my journey to a healthier, happier self, I ate a chip. Had a brownie. Tasted the cake. Burnt the popcorn AND the pot! But is that reason enough to throw fuel to the fire, in actively observing such thoughts as “you’re a bad person!” “How could you do that?” “You’ll never reach optimal health”….and on and on and on……..
Rather than sit back and panic about all the work wasted on a single chip, I’ve learned (FINALLY!) to replace such wrong accusations with “Thank you for sharing, but no thanks.”
Slow and steady wins the race. My health journey started in 2008 and it continues, gradually but surely. I’m proud to be a lot further along, as the beat-myself-up-name-calling-negative feedback has lessened and becomes a thing of the past with each new day. The good news is that as I consistently make better food choices, I am rarely reaching for foods that once had my head, and heart, consumed with demeaning self-talk. Now that makes me proud, of me 🙂
One step at a time.