“I cheated!”

I burnt the popcorn. Correction–the popcorn and the pot.

A trained chef. A private chef. A personal chef (yes, ’tis me, all three)…..and now, Popcorn and pot burner (four). 😦

“How could I do that?”

“That’s terrible”

“Naughty!”

“I cheated!”

The self-labeling continues with “bad” “irresponsible” “careless” and my entire day is over BEEEEEECAAAAAAUSE (duh!) “I Burnt The Popcorn AND The Pot!”

This is certainly not the first time for this heated internal dialogue. The same name-calling, (started by me, and only with me) is also triggered by my consuming foods that are not particularly health-supportive. “Foods” as in items with lots of grease, lots of sugar, and a whole lotta salt!

What is this?!!! Why do I self-bully with “junk” thoughts that “feed” me ill health, mentally and emotionally and with time–physically, in addition to having me sabotage my previous efforts toward healthier choices. There’s enough evil out there, why bring it home, where brain and heart are primary tenants. Β Their influence over additional residents (vessels, organs, cells….) can make or break you.

So on my journey to a healthier, happier self, I ate a chip. Had a brownie. Tasted the cake. Burnt the popcorn AND the pot! But is that reason enough to throw fuel to the fire, in actively observing such thoughts as “you’re a bad person!” “How could you do that?” “You’ll never reach optimal health”….and on and on and on……..

Rather than sit back and panic about all the work wasted on a single chip, I’ve learned (FINALLY!) to replace such wrong accusations with “Thank you for sharing, but no thanks.”

Slow and steady wins the race. My health journey started in 2008 and it continues, gradually but surely. I’m proud to be a lot further along, as the beat-myself-up-name-calling-negative feedback has lessened and becomes a thing of the past with each new day. The good news is that as I consistently make better food choices, I am rarely reaching for foods that once had my head, and heart, consumed with demeaning self-talk. Now that makes me proud, of me πŸ™‚

One step at a time.

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About I just love that man

Love and Health, my two favorite things. As a Plant-based Certified Nutrition Counselor and soon-to-be wife to 'that man' of mine, I bring my two loves together for one happy life!
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3 Responses to “I cheated!”

  1. healthiestbeauty says:

    Reblogged this on The healthiest beauty.

  2. I have done this many times , although I am not a trained chef of any sorts. the drudgery of cleaning the burned popcorn pot has forced me to cave into the microwave popcorn bag. I know ‘cringe’ would also be the word i would use to describe my weakness! p.s. this blog makes me very hungry πŸ˜‰

    • Heehee….!

      Well that makes two of us! It’s the microwaveable popcorn bag from here on out! It turns the frown upside side down with the press of the button: “START” (on the microwave).

      It’s these little things that make me πŸ™‚

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